48 hours

Could use twice the hours in day/ in 48 hours this will hopefully be over. Need to become sharper, clearer, focused, faster academically. I remember the first half of 1st year when I hated Dundee and my life here, but everything academic was incredibly effortless, fewer hours and better grades. Correlation? The scrutiny of depression seems to breed academic sucess, effeciency and precision.

For this reason, I tried to get back in that place today, all the sad songs, all the sad thoughts, but the feeling was overwhelming, the emotional contrast was too great, so it gave no academic boost, just a need for friends and family! So, intermittent downtime is the only thing that works relatively well and working with coursemates to supervise you. I feel like I'm in Kindergarten, longing for the teenage hell of uncontrollable zit-popping. I hope I don't need to explain that metaphor..

Anyway now I'm back to number-crunching and then later on an all-night essay session at Kirsty's. Had a Kings and Coward's gig today at Drouthy's opening for Our Future Glory (who where releasing their EP). Downtime. Now it's game time.

And tomorrow it will be over!

Lindsay and Annuka skipped town today, in fact a lot of people are leaving. It's strange to see Dundee empty itself out so rapidly. I wouldn't like to be a permanent resident here if it's like this. I still have one more exam to go.

I am very scatterbrained at the moment, but it shouldn't be too hard. Management is more fun than Neuropsychology (yesterday's exam). During this exam period I have been sleeping over at Kirsty's, I can't sleep more than two hours because I only have nightmares about the exams in which I am only able to write 2 sentences per question...

Thankfully, exams have gone well and I am simply being paranoid. Monday's exam went well! I am quite happy about that one.

Alright more studying. I will post pictures of lovely faces (Annuka)

here's a photobooth of me right now for those who care

(the face I pull when I listen to Memory Boy by Deerhunter)

The Study-Body

The study body wants what it wants. It craves loads of food and clothes shopping.

This day I've done laundry, the second time this term oh yeah, now I can go to the gym again without people running away from my stench! Back to the books.

Franscesca's having a good bye party now before she goes to Spain for a year - tempting!!

Ciao Bello

Check out the food/ shopping photo diary below:

Saturday's Chinese food:

Hairy Ben & Jerry's:

Sunday's shopping spree:

Monday's fruit and yogurt frenzy:

This evening we're devouring a bag of fruit, smoothies and couscous:

KIRSTY'S BACK

At the library with lover!

I brought boiled eggs with me and we drew them into people!

I borrowed Kirsty's notes and found this odd timeline next to the choice of essay titles, a log of her indecisive decision-making? hahaha

We had our lunch in one of the university's 'secret gardens'!

We're studying economics following a schedule, looking forward to the break in half an hour!

Ginger beer here I come!

It's Better to Burn Out than to Fade Away

Peace Rocks! I love a little peace and quiet once in a while

Really?? Rather take it easy from time to time! Feel like my eyeballs are melting from all the stress, I'm winding myself up. My room reeks of eggs and caviar. I want to tumble into a nice feathery sleep until I feel 100% again, but all that can really solve this is studying, when I feel like I'm handling my load I stop feeling nauseous.

Planning to go to Broughty Ferry after I do some studying.

Ciao for now

Off to the Library!

Again. Going back for another battle with the books.

I'm not doing interesting stuff but I try to look the part

Just another nerdy perv? Wearing Zara, Oasis and mom's.

The Recess Blog

Kirsty and I have a lot of fun studying together especially during study breaks. We wine and dine each other, eat ice-cream, preferably drink ginger beer, go shopping, the lot! Here's some of that fun:

Yesterday's shopping, matching H&M bags:

On my shirt and leather trousers: (lemon sorbet)

In a dumpster: (broken car windows and a banana peel)

On the steps: (Kirsty)

Hair is not always beautiful, but it sure can hide a face.

Today's Accounting trance

Post-powernap, Kirsty had to snap one:

Our evening 'picnic' with all the trimmings.

Goodnight! I'm an early bird tomorrow

Library Rat

I can't take this bracelet off by myself.. Leather punk from Swedish designers David&Martin.

I've been in the library from 08:30 til closing (10pm) today. I've not had eye makeup on for two weeks, it's refreshing (but bear in mind I don't look refreshed). This is why I have imagined that I look so much older than I did last year - it's because I don't spend an hour on immaculate make up, more like next to none...

It's been raining today so my hair doesn't look too great. But it's been a fun and very productive day. Kirsty and I had lunch at the Parlour in town, had carrot beetroot soup, a falafel salad wrap each and a carrot cake to share. What can I say - skinny-genes!

Tomorrow I'm going for a jog and then meeting up at the library again from 8:30am-4:30pm.

We're going to Glasgow (and hoping to run into Jennie) to see Fuck Buttons at the Arches, and we're spending the night at Holiday Inn!

Study Blog

At the library, tearing this place apart til closing (midnight).

We went for a "study break" earlier, had delicious lunch at Braes! Then we hit the town, I returned the dress I bought yesterday, and instead bought a lot of other clothes... A new skirt, dress, studded waist belt, flowers to put in hair, a lovely beaded hippie hair band and übercool blue pop shades! Kirsty bought a dress and a belt but she never showed me what it looked like on, so I don't really know what to think of it. Then had we sorbet (fat free!!) Marble Slab. Overpriced bollocks. Post pictures of fun times later, now we're back to studying. Ta!

Enjoy the heroin-chic look below, at least alluding to thinness: